Unicorn Blood: A self analysis through media

[hamkawa11]

{Note: I felt like pooping once I started writing this. The nervous kind. I'm not used to writing my thoughts on the spot like this. Hopefully posting this entry will strengthen my bravery.}


Last night I rewatched the short Unicorn Blood by Alberto Vázquez because I'm 5 months too young to buy the movie Unicorn Wars for myself. I had found a few clips of the movie online but they didn't have subtitles so I couldn't understand or take anything out of it. The short was much more complete than the few clips I found and it even had subtitles! Perfect!

When I watched it for the first time I watched it like anything else. Astonished by its in-depth characters, intrigued by its visual artstyle, and confounded by its metaphors, the unicorns being tricky for me especially.
Now, usually, when I do anything I'm super tired which can affect my perspective on the media I consume because when I am tired, I feel like a completely different person. My mindset changes and I do not have the drive to do things the same way as I am awake.

This is me when I'm tired (which is most of the time):

Passive

Willing to give up

Sad or emotionally numb

Unaware

Cowardly

Messy

Unlikely to follow through with plans

Unable to critically think

unable to focus

sluggish

In need of more help (due to the 3 previous ones)

Socially concerned

Last night was different. I was sick of being tired. I had gotten tons of sleep the other day, so this feeling of wanting sleep was completely useless! I had plans for both enjoyment and work instead of watching garbage content like usual and I wasn't going to let them go to waste. Thus, I made THE CONCOCTION (one tall glass, 5 bags of black tea repeatedly cooked for all it's contents, water, and hot chocolate). Safe to say it had worked, and I never felt better than ever. My mindset became more solid and I once again felt different.

This is me when I'm awake:

Focused

Confident

Active

Hard working

Critical

Selfish

Vain of my mind and what I can do in the future

Self caring

Organized

Forward

Unsuffering

Fashionable

More knowing of what I like and SHOULD watch for both entertainment and studies. (Things that feel more fullfilling)

Less doubtful of self ( I don't just know I'm right, I FEEL like I'm right too.)

This new awareness had made look at unicorn wars from a different perspective (since I was then better at analysing) and I had realised something:

I relate to both Moffy and Gregorio because of these mindsets. Moffy being like my awake mindset and Gregorio being like my tired one. Note: This is not a multiple personality thing. I'd personally compare it to genderfluidity over being bigender. I only have one mind but it's mushy and it can change drastically depending on several factors. Not to mention I constantly belittle my tired side when awake and defend my tired side and try to explain myself when sleepy, making them constantly opposed against eachother.

Honestly analysing myself helps alot mentally and characters like this remind me of who I am as a person.
I forgot how I was going to end this. The tea is starting to wear off so uuuuh, yeah bye.